Today is a day that I never believed would arrive. I mean we have been counting down to it for the last 115 weeks but I still didn’t quite believe we will get there.
Today Elizabeth takes her very last dose of oral chemotherapy. It is not the end of the struggles for us or for her but it is definitely the beginning of something.
On 30th August 2012 I sent this tweet after spending the day in the childrens a&e department awaiting a blood test.
Tired Mummy of Two @tiredmummyoftwo My day just got worse. Blood test shows high white blood cells low platelets. They want to test her bone marrow for Leukemia *worried*
It was that day that changed our lives and there really is no going back. We have all been changed from this experience but I believe we have been changed for the better and I wanted to share with you our journey and show you that no matter how bad life may seem you have to make the most of every day.
As I stated in the video we have had unbelievable support from the blogging community and yesterday we received a package from the girls that some bloggers had got together and had sent them some spending money for Disneyland Paris. Four Hundred Euros! These girls are going to be so spoilt but I am sure the memories will last a lifetime.
When I imagined myself writing this post, as I tend to do when I am trying to fall asleep, I came up with the perfect words, the emotions to share but as I sit here typing I am not sure how I feel. We have come so far and I always try not to look at the past and the things we have gone through but as I found each of those pictures and looked through the hundred of others that I didn’t share I saw my daughter destroyed, weak and seriously sick. I don’t ever want to go through that again and the chances are high that we won’t but there is still that chance. In the lead up to finishing treatment many people have asked me how I feel about it and my answer has always been fine, relieved, happy but now we are at the end there is a cloud of doubt, of worry and I know I will spend the next few weeks, month and maybe even years watching for any signs of it coming back.
However we all worry about our kids and that doesn’t stop us carrying on. I have said it many times before but cancer has made us stronger as a family and has helped us to fill each and every day with happiness.
So as we come to the end of our journey and start to find our new normal I wanted to share this with you. Go on have a piece of virtual cake and celebrate with us!