Feeling like a failure

Back in November I reached an amazing milestone of having lost 2 and a half stone since the May. I was following the Slimming World plan and taking XLS Medical and things seemed to be going well although it was tough at times. Since then every single week has been a struggle. 

I piled on 12 lbs duirng December after spending two weeks in America and then not getting weighed during Christmas and New Year. I have managed to get that back off but I can’t seem to get any further. I keep yo-yoing between the same three pounds and can not get any further. 

I have to be honest with myself and say that I have not been following the slimming world plan properly, I haven’t been writing down what I am eating, I have been going over my syn allowance and I have been stepping on my scales too often. I have also been eating out far too often.

With all of this going on I have decided that I need to draw a line and start again. I need to be determined to succeed and so I have made a few decisions which I am going to share with you.

1) I have downloaded the Couch to 5k app. 
I know running doesnt actually help you lose weight but exercise will make me feel better and when I feel better about myself I eat better.

2) Use my Thinking Slimmer Slimpods again
I have the thinking slimmer app which gives me access to the 12 week gold program. I really need to start listening again as I found myself not thinking about food as much when I listened to that.

3) Plan my meals
I need to plan my meals to ensure we know exactly what we are eating and when. This includes my breakfasts and lunches which is somewhere I seem to be slipping up a lot during the week.

Hopefully with these three changes will get me back in to the zone and help me to kick start my weight loss again. I still have a long way to go and want to feel a lot happier about myself before we go on our cruise in August and to do that I need will power and the ability to make the best choices for my body rather than my taste buds. 

I am going to start sharing my journey again in the hopes that it will keep me on the straight and narrow. I don’t weigh in now until Thursday 24th so I am going to try really hard between now and then to see if I can get a great loss. I still have a few obstacles such as a restaurant review and an afternoon tea in London but I am going to try my hardest to make sensible choices when placed in these situations.

To help me remember just how far I have come here is my before photo and one taken whilst on holiday in December. I don’t have any full length photos but I am going to start taking them each month to help me see my progress. For now I can see how far I have come and how much better I look. It really helps to give me the push I need to really make a go of this.